The Quest for the “M.D.”

A month has passed considering the results of the March 2016 Physician Licensure Examinations (Hereafter, PLE) were released ~ the agency of the Professional Regulation Commission (Hereafter, PRC), and to beware my name among those who passed felt like a dream… a dream that became a reality.

I am, and eternally will be, happy of this deed, but of course, a month in in which place this extra 2 letters at the cessation of my name is now functionary, the high has since dissipated; the fact sets in that now I own to find a job; and the straits that passing the exam on my principal try is not a fluke and I merit to be a doctor is very lately looming over me.

Having said that, we even-handed recently had our Oath Taking and got our professional ID’s that I conceive it is a good idea to walk prostrate memory lane and see how we got in the present state. So, join me, as we be directed back!. Now, I will not shield my WHOLE life’s story… that would frankly have existence boring, instead, let us talk concerning the past 4-5 months when I was reviewing in this victuals preparation center aptly named Topnotch.

So, brood back, relax, grab some popcorn, because this will be a story unlike any other I have ever told…

It was encircling August 2015, where my classmates are not beyond days of their own PLE; I had to opt through of the August 2015 exams by them since I had an manipulation in the middle of our internship in company to alleviate an injury on my becoming knee. This forced me to stay one extra 2 months in internship to the degree that my classmates toiled away at their notes in Topnotch pile up to the August 2015 PLE.

Was I disposed to envy? Who wouldn’t be? I wanted to pass in ~, take, and eventually conquer, the exams with the same people I survived the at the outset 5 years (including internship) of Medicine through . The same people I see epoch in and day out. The like people who know it’s me allowing that they hear someone blurt out profaneness in the back of the expanse. The same people that recognize the elasticity of my voice, in turn, I also, know the tone of their notes, and can immediately finish eachother’s sentences. Those were the commonalty I wanted to share this unimpaired ordeal with.

But alas, in at~ with Murphy’s Law, I had to have ~ing delayed around 2 months in internship, in doing to such a degree I wouldn’t be anywhere ready ready to take the exams. I force even spoil our university’s (Angeles University Foundation) take down of having 100% passing rate closely every year for the first time takers of the PLE.

So I waited. And had to bear up under the fact that my classmates, during the August 2015 PLE, all passed, leaving me to wait with respect to March 2016 to bask in the identical glory as they did. Of give chase to, along the way, I had my doubts in the manner that to whether I can really omit the exam myself, as you resolution read later on as we journey on with the post.

I mode, come on, I am not a twitch that I was not happy my classmates passed and I didn’t on the same level take the exam; I was perfectly happy, but I wished I were in that place. Heck, I nearly shed a vassal tear when I saw one of my most of all friends making rounds in the hospital in the same proportion that a resident. It was a visibility to see and I was suitable imagining my turn.

As soon because their PLE was over with and the favorable news was announced, I was cooling the main website and Facebook boy-servant of Topnotch Medical Board Prep, delaying (im)patiently to register for their program. And at the time that the Google Form was up adhering the date and time they promised it would have existence, I immediately registered and felt my highest milestone passed on my journey to those 2 learning at the end of my authority, M.D..

11916088_10207470469500526_3314584462857166785_nAnd so it begins…

I was lection some of my review books that I bought up to this lively turn of thought in order to refresh my regard with all these medical subjects that I bring forth certainly forgotten over time and journey it easier for me to come the flow of the review lectures in Topnotch. It did pay distant from while I was there, but in the same manner with you will read later on, it did injure by fire me out eventually reading for within a little a year.

Upon receiving a proof as to what section I am going to exist in, which was Section Harvard in Fairview, Quezon City, my highest choice, that is when we decided to look for a place ~ the sake of me to stay. It is of list of items, that we already decided on verdict a place in Sunny Villas, the corresponding; of like kind place where my sister stayed as long as she was also reviewing for her cover with ~s exams some 7 years ago. Also of list of items, just like when my sister was reviewing, my mom last ~ and testament be staying with me; not solely for morale support but for natural support as my right knee that was operated without interrupti~ would have a relapse of vex every now and then rendering unable to really walk.

Upon finding a dispose in Fairview in a day, it was time to put in operation the waiting game.

At this time, the exams were quiet thought to be on February 2016, but that upon receiving word from PRC that the exams bear been moved to March 2016, in the same state to was the start of the revise sessions in Topnotch, giving me 2 other thing weeks of “supposed” freedom; that exemption from restraint. of course, was spent valiantly reading, but would be enticed to gambler games with my friends. Two weeks well wearied.

Then the day of the act upon arrived. I decided to move in correct a day before the registration and orientation, if it were not that thankfully I was able to achieve used to the place quickly enough.

Moving Day! My place in Sunnyvillas at Fariview, Quezon City

Moving Day! My place in Sunnyvillas at Fariview, Quezon City

Moving Day! My place in Sunnyvillas at Fariview, Quezon City

Moving Day! My village in Sunnyvillas at Fariview, Quezon City

Moving Day! My place in Sunnyvillas at Fariview, Quezon City

Moving Day! My room in Sunnyvillas at Fariview, Quezon City

Moving Day! My place in Sunnyvillas at Fariview, Quezon City

Moving Day! My fortress in Sunnyvillas at Fariview, Quezon City

As you have power to see, the place wasn’t actually all that pretty, but it was the alone one on ground level for my leg to have ~ing able to tolerate it. It isn’t in fact a place I would usually like to live in, on the other hand hey, I gotta make due seeing that I needed a place close plenty the review center to… well… retrospect.

I was already making due with the place, tolerating its shortcomings, in that case suddenly, after a few days of the reconsider, me and my mom were told that we were staying in that invest illegally. It came to a offend to my mom, as I was attending the retrospect session when all that broke prostrate, only hearing about it the death after my review session. It turns gone ~, the person that we were renting the commit out of, wasn’t the owner nor was she allowed to get such transactions. The owner came by and told my mom to rouse out or she will sue. Sue in quest of what!? We were actually more of the victims to this place! Anyways, needless to say, me and my mom resolute to find another place also in Sunny Villas, and thankfully set one. Sadly, we didn’t in like manner get back our initial deposit from that imposture in the initial place we rented disclosed.Talk about fucked up. But I didn’t look forward to any less from people like that.

Moving into the NEW BETTER place; still at Sunnyvillas. Excuse the Vignette; was using my phone and the app seems to have added a vignette.

Moving into the NEW BETTER standing; still at Sunnyvillas. Excuse the Vignette; was using my phone and the app seems to require added a vignette.

Moving into the NEW BETTER place; still at Sunnyvillas. Excuse the Vignette; was using my phone and the app seems to have added a vignette.

Moving into the NEW BETTER lend; still at Sunnyvillas. Excuse the Vignette; was using my phone and the app seems to be favored with added a vignette.

Moving into the NEW BETTER place; still at Sunnyvillas. Excuse the Vignette; was using my phone and the app seems to have added a vignette.

Moving into the NEW BETTER rank; still at Sunnyvillas. Excuse the Vignette; was using my phone and the app seems to take added a vignette.

Moving into the NEW BETTER place; still at Sunnyvillas. Excuse the Vignette; was using my phone and the app seems to have added a vignette.

Moving into the NEW BETTER area; still at Sunnyvillas. Excuse the Vignette; was using my phone and the app seems to accept added a vignette.

Moving into the NEW BETTER place; still at Sunnyvillas. Excuse the Vignette; was using my phone and the app seems to have added a vignette.

Moving into the NEW BETTER room; still at Sunnyvillas. Excuse the Vignette; was using my phone and the app seems to bear added a vignette.

Moving into the NEW BETTER place; still at Sunnyvillas. Excuse the Vignette; was using my phone and the app seems to have added a vignette.

Moving into the NEW BETTER locate; still at Sunnyvillas. Excuse the Vignette; was using my phone and the app seems to gain added a vignette.

It was in fact a Godsend that that happened to us. We fix a way better place. It is a illiberal place, but it was just lawful, and this time, we transacted by the owner of the place and he was a medical practitioner and said he has good hazard with that place when he himself was re-examine in for both his premed and med conclave exams, as well as anyone that rented that fortified post out from him had great accident in the med board exams. We are nice superstitious so we jumped at the suitable to get it. And in the cessation, it became home.

As time went ~ the agency of, notes started to stack up, things are starting to make acquisition overwhelming, but thankfully, since we were given one extra month for the exam, the retrospect sessions were spread far enough apart to moreover give us self study periods at our have place.

That is what I prize about Topnotch; sure the board exams in favor of us is the most important hurdle notwithstanding us to go over in our live’s at that place of exhibition, but they also made sure we don’t confuse our minds, reading day in and appointed time out; they have mentorship, wherein a adviser will guide a student not but academically but emotionally – I beneficial to one didn’t have mentor, inasmuch as I had my mom with me, moreover it was nice to see others availing of such; we have afternoon snacks, which may have the appearance like nothing, but after listening to a hap of concepts in medicine, having snacks and sharing them through your co-reviewees gives a tact of camaraderie like no other; and the occurrence that you really don’t be warmed alone, that they really show their brace of their students, that in reality, you are not alone in this aim, makes me confident as the days of the exam get to closer and closer.

Of course, I shouldn’t completely rely attached the review program, I had to prepare my part. I reverted back to my ancient ways of studying like in the sanatory proper days; staying up late, at a past period skipping meals, etc. It took some time to get used to it, yet I then had study flow that I generate to do day in and sunlight out.

Still though, all that combined is certainly not enough. There is undivided more up my sleeve, that is praying. I am a Catholic and uniform though I don’t show that I am practicing my holiness a lot, I am quite devotional and I owe everything I take and everything I achieved with my tenets.

Like every challenge in my life, beside with my hard work, I prayed; I give credit to that I can’t accomplish things granting that I just work hard and prayed. Same time, I furthermore believe I can’t accomplish anything whether or not I just prayed, I need to carry into effect my part.

Each time I am absorbed in my studies, like antecedently mentioned, I would have little to no sleep and I’d skip meals. I be proper for very picky as to what to corrode, and I am already picky to the degree that it already stands. Even if we had one electric stove and my mom is a untarnished cook (you can ask my friends), nevertheless, I couldn’t even find ~ one food palatable. It was always tightly food for nearly 5 months; lots of jugs of Nutella; lots of Frito-Lay chips; and lots and lots of Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups. No surprise my knee is hurting again in the same manner with I gained weight.

Now I receive never been the model student always since I was younger, and it mute showed while I was in Topnotch. Don’t prevail upon me wrong, I am not the wretched influence type of person, but the sort of I meant was that I didn’t tend to all my classes, didn’t take tot~y the mock exams they gave, and I fair went home during the Yuletide holidays at what time it would have been better if I isolated myself from them and closely examined.

At first I was worried with regard to skipping some classes and not vexation all the mock exams, but the notes in Topnotch are real informative that one, granted that united has at least a basic model of the subject matter, will easily gather up up and learn.

And it also helped left my spirits seeing my tribe during the holidays, because I didn’t opt in the place of the mentoring program in Topnotch to such a degree I had to seek emotional assist from my real family – it was main, even just for a day (idea a day of not reading was uniformly considered a sin) not to ween of the stress of the committee exams. Heck I was happy that I got to vouchsafe my yearly tradition of taking shots of the fireworks spread!

24015527211_e65cd0fb5b_bA break from review! Welcoming 2016!23785017589_7558bd07fd_bA set at nought from review! Welcoming 2016!

After the holidays, we had around 2 weeks left of regular criticise in Topnotch until we have our month spun out self review followed by a week of “pearls” what one. serves as a final preparation in Topnotch preceding we head for the exams.

The chiefly difficult part of the month lengthy self review is keeping the motivation; heck not fair the month long review, but with regard to the whole ordeal. Motivation was arduous to keep up. Then you spasmodic effort to notice your confidence also dipping to the design of running away from the exam. That intimately happened to me. I was gravely exhausted and totally burnt out ago I was reading for so all a~ now, I have been deprived of slumber or fun outside the review. I was going nuts. But I had to exert ~ure on.

After all that was uttered and done, only a few days from March 6-7, 13-14, 2016, I was meditation of quitting and taking the the stage next time. Even with all my making ready, my prayers, I still had my secret dipping. It was natural. It was expected. But thankfully, I had my line of ancestors and friends pushing to take it anyway. And I did.

Applied for the exam at PRC

Applied with respect to the exam at PRC

And got my room assignment

And got my play assignment

Having to see my wan blazer and white pants again, made me somewhat excited to tackle the exams, not proficient if I will really do welfare. Not knowing if my inexperience in taking these kind of exams (since it was my before anything else time taking any board exam; B.S. Biology doesn’t receive a board exam) will cause me to freeze up. But I felt a small more at ease when I adage my name on that blazer – I was except a few days away from adding those M.D. at the end of my call officially.

Then the day I bear both been dreading and was in the same state excited for was upon me; woke up at 5am fit to make sure I arrive at my designated testing circuit before 6.30am on the chief day of the exams to listen the instructions, because hey, like I said, this was my first time pique any kind of board exam. Had a hasty bite to eat, loaded my plan up with Coke (it has enough caffeine; I didn’t drink any real coffee these days since I was having lots of abdominal pain and loose bowel movement the impulsive power I take sip of coffee… confer about stressed), and paced around the duration outside the room, saying hi, but that no small talk, to the family I knew from the same military center as me. And I prayed.

Next matter I knew, the first 3 exams are transacted with and I am back in stead taking a nap before reading with regard to the next day’s 3 exams. The primitive 3 exams felt great, so I was starting to have the consciousness of being pretty good. Thankfully, so too, were the nearest 3 exams. Closing out the highest 2 days of the exams with a good feeling, I was looking confident to the next week and the remaining 6 exams that would besides be split into 2 days.

The dreaded “week in between” whither you strive to find the supernatural influence to read for the remaining exams, still wanting to sleep so bad as the week before was tiring in itself already. It was tough, sometimes even depressing, no more than the funny thing about medicine, is that at what time a student says he or she power of determination quit, or can’t take it anymore, we light upon it in ourselves to push ~ward – against any odds.

March 13 at last came, the second to the finally day of examinations; woke up in good time yet again, but somehow, a take out the bowels of feeling was in me telling me that this sunshine may be tough. And boy it was sure tough!

First exam of the next to the first week, which is technically the seventh exam overall, Pharmacology, stingily took my life. It was tough. It was crazy. But I prayed. I pressed forward. The fear was now there. What I felt to such a degree great about the first week is at present greeted with doubts beyond imagination. I cried. Because this meant something to me; I WANT TO BE A DOCTOR. For the foremost time in my life… I doubted my abilities. I was belief of my alibis if I failed. All this was going through my get in front of and there were still 2 besides exams later that day and 3 besides the next day.

The last 2 exams of the age felt so and so, thus despite a moment, I had forgotten that which Pharmacology did to me. But later that ignorance, it was gnawing at me mercilessly. I had to declare by verdict the strength to go on with regard to the last 3 exams. I prayed… boundary, deep inside me, I was even now losing hope.

The last day and the remain 3 exams were fair. I didn’t perceive as bad as the Pharmacology exam, unless how the board exams are graded, the method to pass is to have an average of 75% with no stage in any subject of less than 50%. I felt I was under 50% in Pharmacology. So, no difficulty how good I did in the other exams, that any exam can end it all.

After the ultimate exam, a bit of jubilation, additional of fear and doubt, set in. But upon seeing my mom waiting for me to take me home here at Angeles City, Pampanga, with a hardly any Steam Wallet cards at hand, I in some way forgotten about the exams, and fair said to myself, after signing the put a~ “I have done all that I can humanly do in the exam, it is quite up to You, God.”.

The projected free of the results were on March 18; four days subsequent to the exam. The first night I was able to courageous a lot and thus, that darkness went by very fast. First set time post exam was a little in greater numbers tricky, I tried to play games, excepting wasn’t in the mood. I condign cleaned my room and that seemed to operate well. On the second day station exam, I went out with a dear companion I haven’t seen in a year or in such a manner since she is now living in China; I be under the necessity of say, I was happy to be with her because she made me think no more of about the exam for a ace and when she notices me conscious nervous or tensed up about it, she cracks a crank or just talks about random things to become my mind off of it.

Sadly, taken in the character of much fun as I had with her, we had to go back to our several homes. Upon arriving home, I was in prompted by despair need to get my mind opposite the exam, so I decided to manage some wires in my PC.

As I was tinkering gone in my PC, I got a christen from my sister. When I answered she called me “doc”, which is not too surprising… Since I became ~y Intern 2 years ago, she calls me doc, for the cause that I also call her doc in the hospital (Yes, my sister is a learned man, too). So, I thought this was a fixed call until she said the magical war of ~ “Congratulations! You passed!”. I was like ~t any way, and then I went to the PRC website and axiom them release the results; I reach Ctrl+F and typed my call by ~, and there it was!

12841218_10208772017478412_8977075769831408866_o.jpgThis was taken from my sister’s Facebook boy-servant ; I appreciate that she made this. By the space, I am not 450 overall… this is alphabetical!

However, I was stationary not sure if what I maxim was real. The first person I told this to was my dam , of course, and I had her practise ~ing my name to make sure. She before-mentioned, yes that is your name. Yet, I was quiescent not believing any of this. Until once for all, my close friend, a classmate from my B.S. Biology days, who happens to have ~ing taking up medicine as well and bequeath take the board exam herself this September 2016, greeted me through Facebook private messaging. That is whenever I knew, it was all authentic.

Had a multitude of greetings from former friends, my classmates, professors, and relatives. I was at cloud nine. And I thank God as being all of this. I felt veritable happy and I knew I should be delighted with the high and the subsequent VACATION (I capitalized that word because boy oh boy do I necessity and want one), because in time, at what time the high is gone and I am tired of intermission and staying stagnant, reality will lower and I should look for a do ~-work and start my residency training – and formerly residency starts, well, I won’t bring forth a break or vacation for a sum up of years.

After the results were released, I was looking on the side of jobs, but not really planning to accord. my application anytime soon, as the games on my Steam library are tempting me, in addition like I said, I want a vacation. I was just looking for coming references. With that said, I didn’t direct down all job opportunities; meager tasks like doing the material examinations for blood donors I be sufficient just to earn a little ~ordinary spending money, and not yet committing to a full time job just yet. It helps occur the time when you don’t wish to game the whole day and tarrying for the day you need to record in PRC, and ultimately, attend the Oath Taking.

Which leads us to today…

13055398_10209131097535189_9003594457350082856_nThis is it!

Just perfect attending the Oath Taking for the New Physicians, by-word my review mates from Topnotch, maxim my classmate, and saw my counterpart interns from AUFMC; had a chief time, this time no more faint talk, since there was nothing to worry hind part before, I got to talk a doom, and apparently, they talked a apportionment as well. I guess we were every part of the same when we reviewing and seizing the exam – we were tensed and straightforward couldn’t find it in ourselves to talk to each other when we could lawful review. Now, it was no holds barred. It was noted.

After reciting the PRC Oath and, the sort of I have been waiting for from the time of I was a young boy, the Hippocratic Oath, it was time to possess our professional ID and certificate of registration…

With my mother!

With my originating!

With my older sister who is also a doctor... thus my boss!

With my older sister who is besides a doctor… thus my superintendent!

Here we are with my classmate and good friend (all my classmates are my good friends) from AUF School of Medicine

Here we are with my classmate and good friend (all my classmates are my benefit friends) from AUF School of Medicine

Nice shot from my sister. Nice angle!

Nice reach from my sister. Nice angle!

This time around we are with fellow doctors, Dr. and Dra. Martin! I am the godfather of their first born!

This time encompassing we are with fellow doctors, Dr. and Dra. Martin! I am the godfather of their highest born!

With my Professional ID and Certificate of Registration

With my Professional ID and Certificate of Registration

More friends made this day!

More friends made this time!

Random

Random

This served as my new profile picture in Facebook; long over due need for a change of profile picture.

This served as my strange profile picture in Facebook; long athwart due need for a change of side face picture.

When all was said and accomplished, took enough pictures to make my mom and sister (who attended; my father never attends these… he is… agoraphobic.), aphorism bye to my friends and assuring them we will all meet again, it was time to accept home.

Now that this is throughout, I can really plan out my intermission before I seriously job hunt.

The actual presentation I had during the review sessions and then the exam I will never forget. Much like clerkship and internship, I see back on this and smile. But likewise like clerkship and internship, I would not want to go through this anew. It is a humbling experience, and I experience humbled enough to never have to case through it again. Sure, I wish have my future diplomate exams, end I feel that I will be more mature and more in proper mood with my chosen specialty to seize the diplomate exams with confidence (I hope… still most likely, I will be human, and subsist scared again). I have always practiced my by my ~ in my own way, and for the period of the exams, I prayed more than I have power to ever remember. And again, I did drudge hard for all this, I had noble support by family and friends, mete I wouldn’t have made it exclusively of my faith. Thank you God.

All the commonalty that I’ve met, both co reviewees and the canaille around Fairview where I reviewed, I rate their support even when I was basically a foreigner to them. My friends, mentors, everything throughout my life even those I haven’t seen into the bargain many years, gave their well wishes and prayers for the time of this exam. My family who not at all doubted me. And God. I express gratitude them all. I love them every part of. To the point when even influencing out of my home for 6 months in Fairview made me well up a morsel.

This condo served me well. I thank you. Moving out...

This condo served me well. I express gratitude you. Moving out…

This condo served me well. I thank you. Moving out...

This condo served me well. I make acknowledgments to you. Moving out…

This condo served me well. I thank you. Moving out...

This condo served me well. I make acknowledgments to you. Moving out…

This condo served me well. I thank you. Moving out...

This condo served me well. I thank you. Moving out…

This condo served me well. I thank you. Moving out...

This condo served me well. I make acknowledgments to you. Moving out…

This condo served me well. I thank you. Moving out...

This condo served me well. I thank you. Moving out…

This condo served me well. I thank you. Moving out...

This condo served me well. I express gratitude you. Moving out…

Vacation method ON. And then onwards to the next chapter of my life!

‘Til next time!! PEACE!!

26506652995_f9e62088e4_bWhat all those years of lineage, sweat and tears are all hither and thither. Now, onwards to the next chapter of my life! Residency education! After vacation, of course!

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