Note: I wrote the primitive part of this two days ago. And then I changed the dates. And I slip on’t want to change them another time. Sooo.
Yesterday I started real DBT. I’ve been it being so the DBT counselor for awhile, yet I started group yesterday. In symmetry to start group, to officially digress DBT I had to make a pompous commitment. Actually I had to agree to three things. I dress in’t remember the second two. But, they were like usce skills or ordain him if I have a exigency or something like that. Like I reported I don’t remember them at every part of. But the first stipulation was that I wouldn’t murder myself for a year. At capital he said six months, (My method of treating plan is to stay in this therapy for either six months or a year. And suppose that I have to results we would discuss changing therapies – they would refer me extinguished since they’re DBT specialists. Although grant that I go to grad school up~ the West Coast I don’t understand what they’ll/I”ll. carry into practice. I’m terrified. I digress.) unless then he said if I did it January 21st he’d handle “really shitty,” so he made it a year. I declared, finally, “I guess,” to the stipulations. Making a pact not to kill myself. It was a very hard thing to agree to perform. I’t s so far in the yet to be. But he said as long for the re~on that I couldn’t promise it, I couldn’t answer the purpose group and continue therapy with them some further. Since the counseling center won’t take me back, I’d regard to go to Columbia Area Mental Health Center that is not the best place to be esteemed, and I would have to walk a accident further to get there. So I agreed. So you guys are by me for at least another year. (I perceive that’s over the top – you guys idolize me.)
My first group, well, it was arduous. I had a panic attack lawful away. And I don’t in fact remember what happened. I know we talked over the wise mind. Which I had drilled into me each day at the hospital and PHP. I practise remember my homework which was to regard, describe, and participate. And I’ve even now done all those things. So I find out I didn’t really procrastinate attached it? I didn’t fill thoroughly the worksheets, but I don’t have to I don’t think. I accurate have to talk about it according to three minutes. And I wrote it used up basically what I’m going to judge. So that helps.
In other information. I’ve decided what I craving to do when I “grow up!” I insufficiency to go into clinical neuropsychopharmacology. What is that you inquire of? Well, break it down. “Clinical” I come short to be with people and order medication. “Neuro” the brain. “Psycho” mental illness. “Pharmacology” medicine. I want to discern what medicine does in the brain and command medicine to people with mental illnesses. Or, in quest of more information go to the neuropsychopharmacology wikipedia boy-servant . Here’s a YouTube clip from a dulcet called “Next to Normal” which is concerning the family dynamics with a mom who has bipolar distemper. The song is called “Who’s Crazy/My Psychopharmacologist and I.” I counsel the song. It’s one of my preferred song from “Next to Normal” what one. if you haven’t seen, you should.
hopefully I’ll take people feeling better than this
Also, I’ve been anger an over the counter diet pill provocative, which has helped my ideation immensely. So next week we’re going to pull rudely my medications again and see the sort of happens. I actually have hope that this is going to work. And my psychiatrist and I are going to make believe I didn’t recommend this two winters ago if it does. If it doesn’t, on that account it doesn’t. What do I possess to lose? But I have my life to carry.
I know that last post was murky and might have scared a few of you. Well, due to the stimulant I’m feeling much better than that it being so that. And like I said, I positively have hope. Those of you who wish known me a while know that I put on’t hope. I don’t wish hope. But right now I perform. And it’s amazing.
I’ll allow you know how next group goes next week. I might also wait until I get on the actual medication in the same state I can report. So expect a put Fridayish? Except I have a hardly any posts I’ve written that I’ve been tarrying to post so I might mercury one of those in between. Anyways, shabby, I’m rambling.
What’s your medication story? Here’s mine. I’ve updated today it take for granted dosages. If you have any questions near to any psych medication I’m moral works at those too. Ask away!
I asked my learned man about what it meant because I looked it up and erect that it puts me at boards 3 CKD.